I was there that night right beside you
Laughing with you and taking care of you because something upset you
Did you realise then that it was actually me who needed help
Did you realise then that I needed you more than you needed me
Today when you write on SM that you are here to listen
Is that not fake?
I was there I was screaming from within and you couldn’t hear
Do you mean tomorrow if I quit SM you won’t be there to hear me out or help?
That’s really ok
All I was looking for was a real person in the world of fakes
I was there at your doorstep because I couldn’t bear to be alone
And when you said you will always be there for me
I thought you meant it
That night I knew you were inside but your doors didn’t open for me
That’s really ok
All I wanted was an honest friend
I was sitting next to you, telling you what was going on in my mind
You told me a lot of things
You told me how suicide is a crime and how everyone’s life is a struggle
Do you think I didn’t know that already
You told me I was indulging in self pity
That’s really ok
All I was searching for was an empathetic listener who would just listen to me without judging me
I was there at the party right behind you
When you were making fun of me and telling everyone how you find me to be boring
When the rest were laughing at my expense, you joined them too
That’s really ok
All I was looking for was someone who was kind
Tonight as I stand on my balcony parapet wondering which place was better, the sky above or the earth below. And then I decided to embrace the earth to live in the sky above, for the earth failed me each time I wanted to live. You failed me each time I cried for help. But rest assured dear friend I shall not trouble you anymore. But as you live on, remember to be kind, true and non judgmental. That’s all it would have taken to save me.
PS: THIS IS NOT ABOUT ME, I AM NOT SUFFERING FROM DEPRESSION. THIS IS YET ANOTHER FIGMENT OF MY IMAGINATION